Y can't death come easily???

Evrythin around is so fake.. so not wanted...i jus dun feel like goin on more....
evry single soul around me.... thy dun need me... n i dun feel da need of livin more... coz im tired of livin... whts so exciting to go on? nuthin.....
nuthin evn excits me to live ... whom to live for? for the ppl around me? CRAPPPPP!!!!!
all i lik to do is.... jus sit in sum corner.. n cry... i hate seein ppl around me... i hate evrythin around me....
i dun want any1.... nuthin.... no one...
Wht i jus want is DEATH.... have being prayin to god day n night... tht jus take me away... i seriosuly dun wanna live.... but i wonder y my prayers dun work out....
evry person around me has a problem wid me....true... im a person who cant make any dam living being happy....
seriously... if evry1 has so much problem wid me .. y dont they kill me... ? i dun like livin either.. i seriously dont.... i wan2 die.....
can sum 1 help me die?????

Realtionships!!!!

This is What i feel.... bout relationships... now!!

RELATIONSHIPS------off all kinds------are like Sand held in your hand.Held loosely,with an open hand,the sand remains where it is.
The minute you close your hand and squeez tightky to hold on,the sand trickles through your fingers.You may hold on to some of it,but most will be spilled.
A relationship is like that. Held loosely,with respect and freedom for the other person,it is likely to remain intact.....But hold too tightly, too possessively,and the relationship slips away and is lost.....

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When an emotional injury takes place,
the body begins a process....as natural as the healing of a physical wound.
Let the process happen,
Trust that nature will do the healing....
Know that the pain will pass.. and,when it passes,you will be Stronger..... Happier.... more sensitive and aware.....

After a While....

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul...And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and eyes open,with the grace of an adult....not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much..
So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers....
And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong,
And you really do have worth.