Riddhi's Journal

Friday, October 29, 2004

Anything is possible.....

If there was ever a time to dare,
to make a difference,
to embark on something worth doing ,

ITS NOW.

Not for any grand cause,necessarily...
but for something that tugs at your heart,
something that's your inspiration,
something that's your dream.
You owe it to urself
to make ur days here count.

HAVE FUN.
DIG DEEP.
STRETCH.
DREAM BIG.

Know, though, that things worth doing seldom come easy.
There will be good days.
And there will be bad days.
There will be times when u want to turn around,
pack it up,
and call it quits.

Those times tell u
that u r pushing urself,
that u r not afraid to learn by tryin

PERSIST.

Because with an idea,
determination,
and the right tools,
you can do great things.
Let ur instincts,
your intellect,
and ur heart,
guide U.

TRUST.

Believe in the incredible power of the human mind.
Of doing something that makes a difference.
Of working hard.
Of laughing and hoping.
Of lazy afternoons.
Of lasting friends.
Of all the things that will cross your path this year.

That start of something new
brings the hope of something great,

ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE







Tuesday, October 26, 2004

????

Have i changed so much dat no one wants to this riddhi????
Its really frustrating..... some facts of ur life change u as a person.... n whn u feel wat u doin is right.... ppl around think u rong..... u r bad.... u r selfish.. n they all jus go away...... n u r left all alone.... .dats wat has happend wid me..... i am all alone.... alone is not da word.... i myself am responsible for all this is guess...
I changed for good...... im tired of being da old riddhi who use to live for otherz..... who always laughed... fooled around.... use to be kiddish n innocent.....
I have become selfish.... i think bout myself now...coz whn i use to think bout otherz i never got anythin in return .... Just a GPL..... thn y shud i think bout otherz........ n after i have changed.... ppl r regrettin .. they regret to know me..... n all r jus goin away.......whn i look back i have no one... NO ONE..... its me .. me n only me....
Wat da hell am i suppose to do.....I wanna go away from here... i cant live here..... i look around i feel frustratred .... feel like killing myself......i cant evn go away from here coz i have to finish my degreee..... i dunno wat to do......



HAPPINESSS.......... yea..i've heard this word often ..infact I hear it almost evryday..... When I came in this world, GOD made my family happy... When I talked da first time...When i walked for the first time...My parents were happy.When i make friends.. n feel close to them , whn i feel wanted i feel happy...when i do sumthin new n i feel successsful(dats never poss), when i hand around wid my pals(not poss now)... whn im wid my famiy i feel satisfied n satisfied..
When i look upon my life im no longer happy!Where has the joy of my living gone?Wher r those sweet moments I always wanted to spend? wher is the LOVE... AFFECTION...CARE.. which I imparted to otherz but never got back?
May b I am a bit selfish.. but give it a thought---- whn u invest in sumthin & U don't get the returns, don't u feel disappointed?
I know one has to live life on their oen & not to be too dependent on friends,but u can't totally rule out da phenomenon of maintaining relationships.If having friends or not,ought to make no difference to us... then y do all of us socialise????

Do u know how it feels when ur end is near??? It feels like U got no fear, all tension is on U,all eyes r turning away from U..... When u feel sumthin sharp in ur throat that stops U from sharing what's in ur heart.
When u feel like staring at empty space.Wehn the world is running at much faster pace. When ur friends r present & yet still they r not , When ur living, though U wish U were not .When U just wanna hide ur face..... This is wat is happenin to me.... this is wat i feel...

Monday, October 18, 2004

C this is it.......

Love comes when we least xpect it, when v r not lookin for it.Hunting for Love never brings the right partner.It only creates longing and unhappiness. Love is never outside ourselves, Love is within us.
Don't insist that Love come immediately.Perhaps u r not ready for it,or u r not developed enough to attract the love u want.
Don't settle for anybody just to have someone.Set your standards.What kind of love do u want? List the qualities in yourself, and you will attract a person who has them.

U might examine what may b keepin love away.Cud it b criticism?Feelings of unworthiness?Unreasonable standards? Movie star images? Fear of intimacy? A belief that u r unlovable?
Be ready for love when it does come. Prepare the field and b ready to nourish love. Be loving, and u will b lovable. Be open and receptive to love.




It seems all of life is relationships. We have relationships wid evrythin.
Relationships r mirrors of ourselves.
This is the only way to change otherz------change ourselves first. Change ur patterns, and u will find that "they" are different, too.
Blame is useless.Blaming only gives away our power.Keep ur power. Without power, v cannot make changes. The helpless victim cannot c a way out....

Do pal.....

Do Pal Ruka Khwabon Ka Karvan
Aur Phir Chal Diyeh Tum Kahan Hum Kahaan
Do Pal Ki Thi Yeh Dilon Ki Daastaan
Aur Phir Chal Diyeh Tum Kahaan Hum Kahaan …

Tum The Ke Thi Koi Ujli Kiran
Tum The Yaa Koi Kali Muskayi Thi
Tum The Yaa Sapnon Kaa Thaa Saavan
Tum The Ke Khushiyon Ki Ghataa Chaayehe Thi
Tum The Ke Thaa Koi Phool Khilaa
Tum The Yaa Milaa Thaa Mujhe Nayaa Jahaan
Do Pal Rukaa Khwabon Kaa Kaarvaan
Aur Phir Chal Diyeh Tum Kahaan Hum Kahaan
Do Pal Ki Thi Yeh Dilon Ki Daastaan
Aur Phir Chal Diyeh Tum Kahaan Hum Kahaan …


Tum The Yaa Khushboo Hawaon Mein Thi
Tum The Yaa Rang Saari Dishaaon Mein The
Tum The Yaa Roshni Raahon Mein Thi
Tum The Yaa Geet Goonje Fizaaon Mein The
Tum The Mile Yaa Mili Thi Manzilein
Tum The Ke Thaa Jaadoo Bharaa Koi Samaa
Do Pal Rukaa Khwabon Kaa Kaarvaan
Aur Phir Chal Diyeh Tum Kahaan Hum Kahaan
Do Pal Ki Thi Yeh Dilon Ki Daastaan
Aur Phir Chal Diyeh Tum Kahaan Hum Kahaan
Aur Phir Chal Diyeh Tum Kahaan Hum Kahaan …

This song says it all......It has to end someday....but when it ends it hurtz a lot....u r prepared for it but yet its like ... y does it happen .. n y is it ME..... things cud have worked out.... LOL..........
What evr happens....happens for best.... !!!!! lets c wats next...



Thursday, October 07, 2004

Gam hai ya khushi....

Was listenin to ustad Nusrat fateh Ali khan..... Amazing..... he is the BEST...
From da past 4 to 5 days... im listenin to this gazal of his.... Gam hai ya khushi hai tu... its really nice.. makes sense...

Gam hai ya khushi hai tu
Meri zindagi hai tu....
Meri zindagi hai tu....

Afatoo k daur mein
Afatoo k daur mein..
Chain ki ghadi hai tu..
Meri zindagi hai tu
Gam hai ya khushi hai tu
Meri zindagi hai tu....

Meri raatgaar chara...
Meri raatgaar chara..
Meri neend bhi hai tu...
Meri zindagi hai tu....
Gam hai ya khushi hai tu...
Meri zindagi hai tu..
Meri zindagi hai tu.

Mein fiza ki shaam hu....
Mein fiza ki shaam hu..
Ruth bahar ki hai tu...
Meri zindagi hai tu...
Gam hai ya khushi hai tu...
Meri zindagi hai tu..
Meri zindagi hai tu....

Dosto k darmiyaan..
Dosto k darmiyaan..
Wajah dosti hai tu....
Meri zindagi hai tu...
Gam hai ya khushi hai tu..
Meri zindagi hai tu..
Meri zindagi hai tu..

Meri saari umrah mein..
Meri saari umrah mein..
Ek he kami hai tu...
Meri zindagi hai tu...
Gam hai ya khushi hai tu...
Meri zindagi hai tu
Meri zindagi hai tu...

Mein toh woh nahi raha...
Mein toh woh nahi raha..
Haan magar wahi hai tu...
Meri zindagi hai tu..
Gam hai ya khushi hai tu..
Meri zindagi hai tu...
Meri zindagi hai tu....

Nasser iskayaar mein
Nasser iskayaar mein...
Kitna ajnabi hai tu...
Meri zindagi hai tu...
Gam hai ya khushi hai tu..
Meri zindagi hai tu..
Meri zindagi hai tu........


hmmmm....good one........
This stuff is dedicated to the ppl who r madly deeply in love....n r on da verge of gettin married..LOL.........
DEV..ANU.....n RITESH its 4 u too.... saloni n u make a dam cute pair.. all da best to all of u ....



Friday, October 01, 2004

Something unusual....!!!

Yesterday... Dat's da 1 st of october.... met a person who is known for only bad things.... he is known as a don man... HUSSAIN.....i use to get freaked out whnever i use to c him....
god knowz wat happened to shamim n me yesterday dat v went for a drive wid him in his new car..v were not at all plannin to go wid him.... coz i get shit scared man.... hez a bloody don ... da only thing he knows is to hurt ppl.... a bad man thingi.......
I WAS WRONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol..... yeh man i was wrong....... v sat in da car.... coz nadeem asked us to..... v sat n guess wat muzik was playin in his car............NUSRAT FATEH ALI KHAN'S gazals .... OH man dat was amazing..............he is a real diff person............. very helpful.... alwayz ther 4 otherz........... Yeh he does get bugged.... an angry young man........... but really good by heart.......Learnt a hell lot of things coz of him yesterday.............
v becam friends real soon............ i asked him da name of da cassette he was playin he removed da cassette n gave it to me.... lol....... he said keep it........ really nice songs in ther..........n any probs wid u ... im always ther..........
he is bad but not wid evry person ............hez a guy who is bad wid bad ppl... n ppl who try to hurt him or his loved one's r screwed big time...hehheheh....
Its funny.. till da time u dont know any1 u r so wrong in judging them......... n after u knw them u can't stop praising them.....hes a really sweet person.................i learnt a lot from him today.....
now v friends... n hez like any probs ill be ther 4 u... don't worry bout anythin...... can't write much bout him here.... coz i can't explain wat all he did yesterday...........Yeh one thing is true he gives bad words to ASIF>>>>loLOLOLOLOLOL........hehehhee... n v were laughin our guts out on him yesterday in da car..........heheehehh