Riddhi's Journal

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Disguise

It all came very easy
when you decided to leave me
You called me to say “goodbye”
I said, "fine" but it was a lie


Since then, I acted to be strong
And proved you that leaving me is wrong
I learned to hide what I really feel
and tried to keep it unrevealed


I told my friends I was OK
"I will survive", that's what I’d say
My true feelings, you shouldn’t know
So I tried my best not to show


So now, tonight, here I am again
Can’t take anymore this obvious pretence
But tomorrow, I guess, I'll keep my lies
And wear my mask for my disguise...



U know it's reallly bad when da person u loved truely.. n yet do has no idea bout it.... but i hurts more whn u love da person n he knows bout it.. n doesnt react to it.....
it's really painful whn da person leaves u for no reason n doesnt even look behind....
Ppl forget their past so easily man... i never knew dat..... i guess i was a fool then who never ever wanted to forget my past... thought dat things will be fine someday.... this is was kk has to say... evrythn will be fine....no wayz kk nuthin will be fine coz u gotta b there for things to go right n u wont understand dat.... y u doin this to me...... i really donno y.....
Its not at all easy to forget ur past.. a past where evrythin seemed to be so fine.... u kwn its really painful whn da person who has jus left u half way thru... has no idea wat he meant to u....
kk was my best friend..a person who i loved truely.... was da only one who i shared my thoughts wid.........
Its really buggin whn ppl dont hide their feelings.... coz dat creats a lot of probs....
i knw dat he yet loves me n has feelings 4 me.... but he is scared dat if he wants me back in his life again he wont b able to give me da same time n importance like he use to give me earlier.... but dam he doesnt understand one thing..... i have changed now....his love n presence.... is everythin 4 me..... his mental not physical presence..... i wanna jus be wid him.... give my love to him.. nothin more...... i can't understand y is kk doin things........ plz kk one chance......... lets give it one more try....... plz ........... lll make things work....
this is d only thing wats goin on in my mind now.... n its 4 u ....

Bolti rahi aankhein meri....
Inko jo padta tu agar..
Hota nahi... yu bekhabar... hota tu mera humsafar..
Ruk ja jo ek baar kehta tu agar..
Tanha gujarta na apna yeh safar...
Lamho ki guzarish thi yeh... paas aaja eh ....
hum ....tum.....






Monday, September 13, 2004

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Life.... This is wat i think bout it now...

Write it on ur heart that every day is the best day in the year. He is rich who owns the day, and no one owns the day who allows it to be invaded with fret and anxiety....
Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what u could. Some blunders and absurdities, no doubt crept in. Forget them as soon as u can, tomorrow is a new day... Begin it well and serenely with too high spirit to be cumbered with ur old nonsense...
This new day is too dear.... with its hopes and invitations.. to waste a moment on the yesterdays......




Thursday, September 02, 2004

Yaad hai

.........god knows y am i bloggin this.... i really dunno.... these r da lyrics of a song from phir milenge.... i heard this song i was in tears... n da only person who flashed in my mind was ... kk.... y did it all happen.... the wordings r really meaninful....

Yaad hai...woh pehli mulaqat yaad hai
yaad hai.. mujhe, teri haar ek baat yaad hai
Woh mehki raatein.. saari saugatein.. bheegi meri aankhon se aansu beh chale
Kisse kuch purane mil gaye.. rone k bahane milgaye.......

Mere toote dil ,mein koi khwaish na rahi
armaano ki sab raaste suune pade
toh duaa bhi meri.. bani aaj badh duaa
yeh ehsaas chahaat k sabhi chubne lage..
kisse kuch purane mil gaye ..ronke bahane milgaye

tujhe bhool na, bhi chahuu toh bhula saku
tu hi bata tere bina kaise rahu..
tu jaane na sanam, gum meine kya saha
bikhre mere sapna zameen pe tooth k
kisse kuch purana milgaye.... rono k bahane milgaye....

it was nice being wid u ..... u taught me how to love.... n molded me ..... i will always remember u ... forever..