Frustrated...........
Posting after a real long time.... 5 days.... gone thru many things in these 5 days....spoke to dev.... hez goin thru a lot... a lot is not the word... only if we were together right now.. evrythin wud have been fine.... he wud have been ther for me n vice versa... i miss him a lot.... hez always helped me out in evry aspect... he was my guideline ..... n at this stage of my life ... i feel dam lonely widout him.... i feel as if im nothin widout dev .....
college started on this monday dat's 21st..... its good.. enjoying.....but evryday got some or the other thoguhts revolving round ... i dunno whn am i gonna change....
all hate my nature... its true.... infact all my friends have warned me ... LOL
its like .. i start caring n trusting ppl a lot... i really care about ppl around me... help thm in evry way... n at last i get a kick on my ass... or in return i never get care n love .... n thn i sit n crib bout being da way i am....
Jinal n Raj.... n ya how can i forget Manish.... they have tried explaing me stuff but i cant change its difficult....
Raj n Jinal ... both of them r so bugged ...they were like.... Dam it y cant u change,,,, plz stop caring bout ppl.. .plz stop helping ppl... u r the one whoz gonna suffer.. u keep on doing things for others but in return u get nuthin.... except pain... n ingnorence....... I gotta change.,... i have to start hating ppl.... n if this is it.... the first person who i shud start screwing is Vidhi... my Best friend ... oppps who was my Best friend.. but jus for a little thing tried to screw my life in evryway n yet is doin dat i feel... I cant do anythin to her.... coz shez always ther for me...
Da only thing dat i can do is.... Stop CARING>>>>. BHAAD MEIN JA.... let me try.. ill change myself............ OH god plz help me...........
