????

Have i changed so much dat no one wants to this riddhi????
Its really frustrating..... some facts of ur life change u as a person.... n whn u feel wat u doin is right.... ppl around think u rong..... u r bad.... u r selfish.. n they all jus go away...... n u r left all alone.... .dats wat has happend wid me..... i am all alone.... alone is not da word.... i myself am responsible for all this is guess...
I changed for good...... im tired of being da old riddhi who use to live for otherz..... who always laughed... fooled around.... use to be kiddish n innocent.....
I have become selfish.... i think bout myself now...coz whn i use to think bout otherz i never got anythin in return .... Just a GPL..... thn y shud i think bout otherz........ n after i have changed.... ppl r regrettin .. they regret to know me..... n all r jus goin away.......whn i look back i have no one... NO ONE..... its me .. me n only me....
Wat da hell am i suppose to do.....I wanna go away from here... i cant live here..... i look around i feel frustratred .... feel like killing myself......i cant evn go away from here coz i have to finish my degreee..... i dunno wat to do......



HAPPINESSS.......... yea..i've heard this word often ..infact I hear it almost evryday..... When I came in this world, GOD made my family happy... When I talked da first time...When i walked for the first time...My parents were happy.When i make friends.. n feel close to them , whn i feel wanted i feel happy...when i do sumthin new n i feel successsful(dats never poss), when i hand around wid my pals(not poss now)... whn im wid my famiy i feel satisfied n satisfied..
When i look upon my life im no longer happy!Where has the joy of my living gone?Wher r those sweet moments I always wanted to spend? wher is the LOVE... AFFECTION...CARE.. which I imparted to otherz but never got back?
May b I am a bit selfish.. but give it a thought---- whn u invest in sumthin & U don't get the returns, don't u feel disappointed?
I know one has to live life on their oen & not to be too dependent on friends,but u can't totally rule out da phenomenon of maintaining relationships.If having friends or not,ought to make no difference to us... then y do all of us socialise????

Do u know how it feels when ur end is near??? It feels like U got no fear, all tension is on U,all eyes r turning away from U..... When u feel sumthin sharp in ur throat that stops U from sharing what's in ur heart.
When u feel like staring at empty space.Wehn the world is running at much faster pace. When ur friends r present & yet still they r not , When ur living, though U wish U were not .When U just wanna hide ur face..... This is wat is happenin to me.... this is wat i feel...